I biohacked myself into being a loser but canteen slop cured me

This is me: In my self-improvement-honeymoon. Optimizing everything.

But without me realizing, I wasn't improving. I was developing a disease.

But let's start at the beginning.

I've just gotten serious with this shit.

• Health optimization

• "Good" habits

• "Learning" constantly

And I decide: These fuckers aren't gonna be poisoning me anymore.

What's the first step? Remove the toxins. So, I made a list…

Not any list. Not a normal list.

Starting after I woke up, I wrote every single piece of plastic that comes in contact with me or with what I consume down. And I'm serious. EVERY. SINGLE. PIECE. OF. PLASTIC.

• my phone case

• my keyboard

• THE FUCKING ARMRESTS OF MY CHAIR

Complete insanity. No fucking life. Just writing shit down like a little nerd.

I told you so: This was a disease.

And the worst thing?

All this wasn't even improving my health. I didn't feel any better. I was still not levitating (damn it).

But in midst of all this optimization craziness I got pulled out…

I'm sitting in a bus. Last row with the boys.

Chatting shit and laughing.

We're currently on a class trip. We get to the youth hostel, go into our rooms and the first thing I pull out: Dried liver, creatine and protein powder lol

But even tough I brought some stuff myself I'm well aware: I can't keep my optimization up during these 5 days.

And I was right:

It's the first night and we're in the canteen getting dinner. Ofc it's some bs canteen-slop. After that, we're going to bed. No one cares about the lights in the evening. So straight from light to bed (2 hours later than normal).

But I just accept this. I let go. I tell myself: I don't have the control, so I won't nocebo myself and make it worse.

Due to the shit food and worse sleep I was expecting my health to get worse.

But on day 3 I notice something.

Something just feels off. I don't feel like usual. This can't be real, right?

Why tf do I feel HEALTHIER than EVER before?

• I have more energy

• I feel more vital

• I have noticeable higher T (iykyk)

• Life felt really fucking good

This isn't supposed to be like this. Why do I feel healthier than when I actively improved my health?

And then it finally hit me: Obsessing over my health and not living life because of it was actually making me MORE unhealthy than it improved my health.

Stressing about the little things, saying "no" all the time, getting everything "right". It was all affecting both my health and my life negatively.

This was a real canon event for me. Reality hit me in the face and I was all for it.

Because of this I finally got it: Social interaction, adventures, exploration, laughing and having a good time are 10x more important for health than always being strict with your diet, never doing "bad" stuff and avoiding plastics like the plague.

Having the basics down is all you need. Have a clean diet 90% of the time. But don't worry about an ice cream here, a glass of wine there or a nice dinner.

Have a good sleep schedule 90% of the time. But don't worry about staying up late for an adventure or going out with some homies.

Live healthy, but don't obsess. Self-improvement autism is a deadly disease.

Since this canon event a lot has changed. Step by step, I injected more life into my existence. Retardmaxxed more. I won over my disease.

• I eat what I want

• I travel without plans

• I follow my intuition, not gurus

• I choose experience over optimization

• I trust my gut, not a nerd with stupid studies

The end goal is to live with health and vril and use this to have a life worth living.

Health is a tool. Lifemaxxing is the project.

Vamos my fellow lifemaxxers.